Dear Diary….

I’ve decided that I am going to include a section, where I can just write. Most of the time, I am stuck trying to fit some style of writing, or I am stressed and I just rush through and I don’t proofread. I also find that not a lot of people actually know me other than me either being in a lab, or lecture, or studying, or in a library. People at the cinemas see me go in, see a movie, and then come out. Sometimes you will find me at a restaurant, but usually I cook at home.

Well, back to what I was talking about. Writing is starting to feel more like a job, rather than a blog where I can just write on what I like writing about, or I can complain about things that bother me. Trust me, there is a lot that bothers me and I don’t say anything because I am trying to learn science well so I can land a science job. But I really wonder, what do people like to read about?

I imagine people like to hear stories about actual people and their lives, rather than what kind of stuff they are up to. Who doesn’t like gossip, as long as it isn’t about them?

Anyway, I just had a dentist appointment at the university, and they fucking manipulated and tested me. I am not going back, because they are this university is the worst fucking place in the world.

I went for a cleaning to try them out, then this stupid dental hygienist scraped the shit out of my tooth and cracked the a filling. I was eating yogurt and peanuts, and my tooth had the filling (or tooth) had broken off. I came back to fill it, the dentist took X-rays as she said she needs to see how deep it goes.

So I don’t know much about dentistry, and I agreed. Then she told me that all this shadow area is cavity, and she said she needed to go in and clean it. She also said that it was near the root and I may need a root canal in the future. Anyway, turns out she was doing it and she then said that it wasn’t as bad as she had thought on the X-ray.

Fuck these people, they are using me or playing some stupid game. I already did this at my dentist office that I normally go to, I don’t have time to train these fucking people, I am sick of this. The professors use me, mostly female professors because feminism is the status quo here. I have a disability and I do require special needs, and it is easy to take advantage of me, I have done my best at turning the other cheek, but not anymore this is too much.

Well, that’s my entry; also, I’ve had to spend $100 on this fucking tooth here, it was fine until they broke it, and originally, I spent $350 to fill it the first time. What the fuck is wrong with these people.

I take care of my teeth and my health, how the fuck do I have teeth decay, and now this dentist says that I have two smaller cavities? Now I wonder if there is something wrong with the air in my house, or the water quality because the water smells, and the furnace is never cleaned. Anyway, I have a chemistry report to run through.