As you can see, my imagination is very limited these days. I always thought I wanted to date another scientist, because I am always in a lab or at lecture, or playing with plants, or reading some papers. It’s just because we are always near each other, and there are some scientists who are together as a couple and they are so solid. You honestly, rarely see them apart, they do everything together. But then I thought of it, and I honestly think that really isn’t sustainable. Do I really want to work in a hospital or a lab, long hours, and then come back home to someone who is also like me, working insane hours, dedicated to their profession and likely would be like Madame Curie? Fuck man, I don’t know anymore. I think I literally would rather date an artist, someone who’s perspective on life is totally different than mine, but we share the core values still. Anyway…

I also don’t know if this is what is supposed to happen, but I was always under the impression that as you get older, time typically gets faster. Things get repetitive, additionally there are less novel experiences than before. But since I have re-entered to school, time has actually seemed to have slowed down!

Well there could several reasons for that, and it may be linked to my medication that I take for ADHD. Despite seeming like things take so long, I am still not using my time effectively, as it seems I am always in a rush. It’s either that I am always in a rush or that I just don’t have time for bullshit.

Also, I am always writing, whether it is for my classes, on a forum, occasionally tweeting on Twitter(X), spending time talking about various topics on Reddit, or just taking notes while researching. If I am not writing, I am reading something, trying to learn something else, or memorize a bunch of shit. I like writing, I feel that expression through language is one of our greatest gifts that we are awarded as humans.

With the amounts that I used to write, I get suspended from sites and forums, like a lot, I used to have Facebook as well, and I have been suspended from there numerous times. I also used to write on Medium.com, my account got banned. I remember before COVID, I had the police show up to my door, twice.

Anyway, I have only been in school for 3 years. It actually feels like I’ve been in school, working on this science degree for 10 years. Granted, I haven’t really left an educational institution for more than 5 years (thanks to COVID it was more like 2 or 3 then everything was locked down). Most of my time now, is spend educating people to be fair. I am not saying that I am super smart, I am saying that most people haven’t spent as much time as I have, in an educational institution.

I am surrounded by students who are studying science, whether it be for their bachelors, masters. their PhD or I am also around those who already have their doctorate in Science, or English, or another field of study.

Recently, I have subscribed to this website called Shortform, where they have summaries on all these books, and I have this plan that I am going to get so much reading done, but I haven’t. I also got 2 new books that I want to delve into: “Everything is Tuberculosis” and “The Strategy of Conflict”. I also want to delve into Genetics a bit more, but I really need to focus on Chemistry.

I failed Organic Chemistry II twice already. I have failed Plant Biology, and I received a 52 in Neuroethology. I actually am on the brink of being Academically Suspended, seriously my CGPA is on the cusp.

Enough school talk, this blog of mine has been here and I haven’t really been active writing. I keep saying I will, but maybe I need to just do it, and stop making plans. Tomorrow is Christmas, and my Grandmother’s birthday is soon after. Even after she had passed, we still get together on her birthday.

There was a gunshot near the University in the valley that it backs on to, luckily most of if not all the field researchers are on holiday. Most of the research that I was “involved” requires there to be some warmth, and the PhD already did her insect collections.

She does her insect collections like 3 hours out from Toronto, but still, maybe someone was hunting the deer for venison? Honestly though, we need a bigger population in my mind, so, I hope no one is hunting the deer.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!

I’ll write soon I promise, there is just so much information that I want to consume!